If Nothing Makes sense, Pray

            My life has changed so much lately, in so many different ways. The plans I had for my future does not seem like the right way now. If that is true, then God what is it you do want me to do? Am I on the right track and I am just being lazy, or are you really telling me to change course?
            I start going over different possible options for my future plans, and pros and cons of each. Nothing seems to sound right or make sense. Where do I go from here? What do you do when you believe your path needs to change, but you don't know what to do instead? When you don't have any direction?
           That was a point I was at when I heard this song. If you are at a point like this in your life I hope it may encourage you.

Exodus 33:13 Now therefore, I pray, if I have found grace in Your sight, show me now Your way, that I may know You and that I may find grace in Your sight.

      Genesis 1:27 God created man in his own image; In the image                                   of God he created him.

     The meaning of this verse has been greatly revealed to me in these last few weeks. When I was younger and heard this verse read I always took it in the physical sense, in that we looked like God himself. But it has much more meaning than that as God has been showing me.
      Sometimes it makes me cry just hearing of all the hurt in the world, especially of the recent ISIS attacks. I can not shove down such thoughts as, "Why God would you want this to happen?" And when my brother died that very same question was not far from my thoughts. I will never forget that moment when I walked into our kitchen and saw my older brother closer to tears than I had ever seen him, and my mother barely containing her emotions leaning against the sink. My father walking towards me and holding me as my mother whispered the words, barely getting them out before bursting into tears once again. Seeing my dad cry for his son, and my mother for hers as well, I will probably never forget that sight.
     But just think of our heavenly father having to see his own son go through the torture he endured and then finally being nailed to a cross. Oh, what tears he must have cried, but he let him go.
   See we are not only created in our father's image physically but also emotionally. The pain I felt at losing my brother God feels the pain just as much at our hurt, if not more.God is not a senseless being. He cares and he weeps for us. "Jesus Wept". Jesus a part of God himself had to go through the trials and temptations that we go through every day. He felt what we felt, he knows just how hard it is. God cared for Ben even more than I did, and he decided to spare Ben from any more pain.
   God let his son go because he knew it was the only way for us. Now I let my brother go, knowing that through God's sacrifice of his own son, he is in a better place where he no longer has to deal with the pain he felt here on earth.